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Words are all I have
I hope and I wonder
I am scared of falling
Of drifting into your eyes
A million deaths
Explosions within
The haunting past looms over me
I want to run
From my heart and my conscience
The never-ending battle
Standing at arms length
I gaze at the point of no return
I shed a tear
I rub my temples
I take a deep breath
Tragedy prevails once again
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Parallel Universe
You’re right in front of me.
You’re piercing eyes are sending quivers down my chest.
I feel like wrapping you in my arms.
I know I shouldn’t but a voice keeps telling me to move closer;
to draw you towards me.
Inch by inch, I feel the distance dwindling;
giving way to human connection.
Your voice is lingering endlessly in my ears.
If only I could take you in;
relish every second until the last drop falls.
I’m crawling and tumbling;
my world getting distorted by each new moon.
I get lost in our conversations,
reveling deeply in wanderlust.
In the darkness, I feel safe;
knowing that your shadow has merged with mine.
That’s enough for me.
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I’m in a room with a guy with a gun. I can’t sleep, scared that he’ll accidentally pull the trigger out of paranoia. I tell him to give me the gun. He refuses. I get the gun from under his pillow and tell him we’re leaving. Right when we step out of the house, daylight shines through the dark skies. A barrage of people comes in, preparing tables and food for noon party. I take the gun to the rest room and take a piss. I take a really long leak. An attractive, sun-tanned girl enters the restroom and I realize that the restroom is unisex. I tell her that I’m almost done but she still stands next to me, staring at her reflection while washing her hands at the same time. I feel a sense of awkwardness on my part but at the same time, aroused in a perverse way. After she leaves, I get out the gun and shoot at my reflection on the glass window. I look at the crater I created on the glass. I just stand there for a long time, not realizing I had just pulled the trigger.
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Depth by theodicy15 Depth :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 0 Eutopia by theodicy15 Eutopia :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 0 Urban Water Falls by theodicy15 Urban Water Falls :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 1 0 Camera Obsura by theodicy15 Camera Obsura :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 1 3 Action Sampler Vanity by theodicy15 Action Sampler Vanity :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 0 Kingdom Come by theodicy15 Kingdom Come :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 0
Triviality at its best
The daily grind tearing me to pieces
Fuck this insanity
Kick and scream
Weep and toil
How long is this road going to keep winding
Can we just lay on the ground and rest
Tomorrow will never come
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Lose Yourself by theodicy15 Lose Yourself :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 0 Blazing Flames by theodicy15 Blazing Flames :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 0
Eulogy for my Dad
     “Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but by the moments that take our breath away”
   A few months ago, my dad made me read an e-mail about the 911 tragedy. George Carlin was the one who wrote it after losing his wife. I don’t really know why, but I couldn’t get this quote out of my head. I remember during that time, I was going through this phase that was just completely beyond my control. I would always find myself depressed and I constantly longed for something or someone to get me out of that rut I was in. Everything just seemed so ordinary and I couldn’t seem to accept the reality of the “routine” we had to go through every single day. I guess what I am trying to say is that this seemingly simple line gave me hope that life was still worth living, in spite of all the struggles we had to face. Before my dad passed away, this quote became my philosophy and I considered it a source of
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Nimbus State
Rain drops tainted on the window
I gaze at the speeding cars
My mind wanders
It comes across a beautiful face
I stray into awe
Taking in the moment
Tears start to well in my eyes
I peer through the liquid beads, accumulating on top of each other
Overcast skies brood over the gloomy world
Staring at its vastness, I long for infinity
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Candle Lights by theodicy15 Candle Lights :icontheodicy15:theodicy15 0 2
Chateau Astoria
Keep trying to repress all these familiar feelings
I'm blinded by your stare
I lose sense of time in your smiling eyes
Everything's whirling beneath my skin
If only I could lie next to you, time frozen for eternity
Snapshots of your profile
Your alluring aura
All of these are blazing in my mind
Three hours is all it took
In your warm embrace, I wanted to melt into slumber
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Love on art by zvegi Love on art :iconzvegi:zvegi 27 12 celestial map by Elipa celestial map :iconelipa:Elipa 404 33 VU by sonew VU :iconsonew:sonew 13 3 Test Zone by audeladesombres Test Zone :iconaudeladesombres:audeladesombres 68 10 Due miserie in un corpo solo by Violator3 Due miserie in un corpo solo :iconviolator3:Violator3 1,243 292 Two lost Giraffes by iram Two lost Giraffes :iconiram:iram 34 26 7 by Maagdalenka 7 :iconmaagdalenka:Maagdalenka 675 127 town of broken dolls by shamanski town of broken dolls :iconshamanski:shamanski 185 33 dream cover by shamanski
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flat for angel by shamanski flat for angel :iconshamanski:shamanski 44 6 two keys for the tale V.2 by shamanski
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tomeka by shamanski
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Citadele by binarymind Citadele :iconbinarymind:binarymind 6 4 We are all beautiful... by Envase672 We are all beautiful... :iconenvase672:Envase672 1 1 Morning meditation by photoport
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Current Residence: Manila/San Francisco
Favourite genre of music: indie,jazz,electronica,alternative
Favourite photographer: Independent Photographers
MP3 player of choice: Ipod Video
Personal Quote: fate is what we make of it/To be or not to be
I hate all those clouds that trail behind me. I can't stand that prickling heat that takes over me like high fever. I'm so consumed by negativity, by hopeless frustration. I want one thing then after I get it,I just want to run away. How can a paradox survive in this world where accuracy is so crucial? Everything is just a race. a race to be the best, to gain stature and fame. what if this cookie cutter mold just isn't for me? if i had it my way, i wouldn't give a damn. i'd just drift into the unknown and drown myself in wishful thinking.

but the hardest part now is that i finally give a damn. and it's a fucking struggle to just ignore the pain and that form of gravity that's just so strong, i feel like i'm falling into a black hole.paranoia,fear,sadness and all those emotions that blind us from the world: i only have one thing to say - i'm not scared and i'm going to fight all of you until i've gained redemption.
  • Watching: prozac nation


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zvegi Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2008
Thank you for the :+fav: for Love on art
modigio Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2008   Traditional Artist
thank you :)
iram Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2008
thank you so much for the favs and watch! it's much appreciated! :rose:
Envase672 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav. That was the first one I ever got.
Winnipeg Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav!
le-croix Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you for favving :D
picciu Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you very much.. i really appreciated it
Thanks for the fav.
YasminaMoya Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2007  Professional Photographer
Thank you very much :heart:
circledot Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
thankyou dear.
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